This post was written for Five Minute Friday
Word prompt--DENY
Five minutes to free write about it
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These past few months my faith has been put to the test, and I did not score too well at all. Despite knowing all the correct answers in my head, my heart has been waging a fierce battle with fear and depression--mostly fear.
And then came spring and suddenly there was color everywhere. My favorite redbud trees were in full bloom. Surrounded by so much beauty, I felt hope start to rise.
However, after a wonderful week of blue skies and 70 degree weather, this is what I woke up to this morning, and though I cannot deny its splendour, I cannot deny my disappointment either. Will any of the magnificent blooms survive, or will this unexpected drop in temperature put the kibosh on it all? There seems to be something symbolic here that I can't quite put my finger on.
Five minutes is not long enough for me to find the right words to adequately describe the turmoil that I feel inside. I'm trying hard to focus on my many blessings, and to turn my perspective around.
I'm so sorry about the struggles you're facing, and then an unexpected return of winter too! Hopefully that will be brief - we are experiencing a return of frost and snow here too, and I hope it won't last past today! Praying that the Son shines brightly in your heart, to warm you up and renew your hope!
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ReplyDeleteThe blooms will survive in one form or another.
I so relate to the struggle with fear and depression. I'm learning to redirect my thoughts placing my faith and hope in God. He is in control. But, I often fail because anxiety can be overwhelming at times. S;pring been a healing balm for me here to be able to sit outside and read. This will not last long due to Texas heat. So, I'm going to drink in as much as I can before I'm forced to be indoors due to heat. I hope this second winter doesn't destroy all the beautiful flowers.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry! But no matter how you feel, you are a child of God, and he holds you. It really snowed here today as well, so I don't think the weather is some kind of sign for you. I hope things will work out for you, blessings.
ReplyDeleteI totally understand. I struggle with depression too, and I battle to focus on the good and all of my many blessings. The tulips and daffodils around here did survive last week's snows, and they look bright and cheerful. Weather can get us down. You are not alone. I hope that you soon experience some sunny days to heal and cheer your spirit. God bless. :-)
ReplyDeleteAs everyone else has said..you are not alone God is there and will walk with you through this and each day..He is the Sonshine in your soul.
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I'm sorry that you have been struggling, Sandra. I've been having a difficult few months too, so I understand. Please know that you are thought of and prayed from.
ReplyDeleteI hope your turmoil has quietened some Sandra. It has been difficult to keep spirits up with everything going on, and the winter is still trying to keep hold. I send you a virtual hug, with the hope that you can feel the love out here from your blogging friends.
ReplyDeleteI like what She wrote..."he is the sonshine of your soul"
ReplyDeleteBe well soon. Hope all is mended quickly for you.
Glad to see you on here Sandy Sharon Self
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