This post was written for Five Minute Friday
Word prompt--MIGHT
Five minutes to free-write about it
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Sometimes I think back over my life and wonder how it might have turned out if I had made different choices along the way.
I wonder if I would still make the same choices if the clock were turned back to give me a second chance.
I think of how some day I will be accountable to God for what I have done with the time and talents He gave me, and feel remorseful that I do not have more to show for what started out with so much promise--a strong body, a good education, and many gifts and opportunities which I wound up unintentionally squandering.
I will never know if I truly missed out on God's best for me, and what that best might have been. I do know, however, that He is in control, and the fact that I am still here means that He is not done with me yet.
Life may not have turned out the way I wish it had, but truth be told, much of my current circumstance is due to poor choices I made that I am now reaping the consequences of. At least, that's my perspective.
God sees the end from the beginning, which I do not, and I'm sure that His view of the tapestry He is weaving does not look anything like the tangle of knots visible on my side. In which case, am I really where I am today because of the poor choices I made, or might I be here by God's design?
Psalm 139:16 says, You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed (NLT). Perhaps then, is this what and where I need to be for this particular moment in His plan?
Had I pursued my talents and education to their fullest, gone on to have a stellar career, and been the best mother/wife/daughter/friend/ employee possible, might I ever have felt a need for the Lord or for His saving grace? Might I perhaps have spent my life chasing after the things this world has to offer instead of the things that have eternal value? Would I have missed God's gift of salvation, a greater loss by far?
What profits a man to gain the whole world, but lose his soul?
ReplyDeleteEither way, God is good to you. I see it.
This is a thought provoking post! It's a blessing to know that God is sovereign and His plan is best. But yes, I've made bad choices too, and I'm sure they have repercussions in my life.
ReplyDeleteYou have a really wonderful perspective on your life. And these thoughts are something we should all consider.
ReplyDeleteGod can redeem anything. He is faithful to repay what the locusts have eaten. Good word. ❤️ G
ReplyDeleteone always has questions don't they? Good to reflect on our life choices isn't it? FMF5
ReplyDeleteI believe that all things that happened in your life were meant to be Sandra. We never know how our interactions affect those we come into contact with, and even sharing your worries that you may have done things wrong could speak to many who read your blog and change their way of life. God bless you for sharing.
ReplyDeleteIt’s comforting to know that even with all the twists and wrong turns, God’s still weaving something good. Thanks for the reminder that His plan is bigger than our mistakes.
ReplyDeleteLove and blessings, Sandra
I love this!! I often think of the same things...What if? Thankfully, God has had me in his hands even when I took a path that He did not have ordered for me. I do have regrets about a few things, but then I think...."I am so Blessed, so there should be no room for regrets of any kind." Have a wonderful week...
ReplyDeleteComing of age in the 80s, the "Wonder Woman" impact led me to believe that I needed to be good at all things - but then I realized (or God helped me see) that I only need to be what He has called me to be. My brain wrestles with the "what might have beens" that the world calls us to (a good job with good money and a good pension) - but God has consistently closed off those opportunities. Opportunities squandered? Maybe to the world. Those failures? If I hadn't failed, how would my children know how to handle those miss-it moments - big and little? Thank you for your vulnerability here - and the truth you shared out of it!
ReplyDeleteSuch a beautiful and honest reflection! It’s encouraging to remember that God’s plan often unfolds in ways we can’t always see in the moment. Life’s detours may just be part of the bigger picture He’s weaving. Thanks for sharing these thoughts! Be sure to check out my new post as well.
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