7/23/08

CONVICTED

It started while reading Quaker Summer by Lisa Samson, and was fueled by two very thought provoking posts--40 Day Fast - HEART, and The 40 Day Fast: How To Be A Rock Star. Surely the Lord was speaking straight to my heart, convicting me of something that is way out of my comfort zone.

Communication has always been difficult for me. It's a skill I never learned growing up, and I'm often at a loss as to what to say and when. That's why I like to blog. When I blog I can write about the things I wish I had said but didn't think of until after the fact.

On the other hand, maybe there's a greater problem at the root of this, a heart problem, a love problem. Unconditional love is something I've never experienced, and I find myself floundering in my attempts to practice it. Maybe that's why I give in ways that don't involve any real investment of myself. I never thought about it that way before. What an eye opener.

Maybe if I stop trying to do the things I don't think I can and let the Lord do them through me, all the rest will follow.

Pray for me, please.

5 comments:

girl with a flower tattoo said...

i love you, grandma! and you have experienced God's unconditional love.

i'm trying to apply that lesson to my life as well - allowing God to work through me rather than trying to do everything myself. sometimes it is difficult for me to rely on God, i suppose i feel it is necessary for me to take care of myself by myself. well, i'm learning that isn't really feasible. self reliance is nice, but not practical.

went off on a tangent... i'm praying for ya though.

R.L.Scovens said...

Aahhh...The Love Walk. That's a rough one. God and I are working on that one over here too. I've never been one of those people who cared alot about other people. God is working on me. He made me and He can fix me!! Just pray and be on the lookout for opportunities that He WILL send your way. He's gonna show you...Just stay open.

annie said...

Thanks for your wonderful comment. I am being convicted in the same way. Although I profess that "I am not ready," I know that I am being called.

Let's listen to the Lord's lead.

God bless!

JMBMOMMY said...

Love your open heart. It is only possible when He lives His life through us...our efforts will fail everytime. I am on this journey with you.

♪♪Melody♪♪ said...

I am glad to have found this post. It sounds like my life. But thankfully God does love me unconditionally. It is very hard for me to demonstrate love to others but I also am working on that.