9/6/09

A RUDE AWAKENING

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge him, and
he will make your paths straight."

Last night I stayed up really late trying to finish an interview I was transcribing, and as I fell exhausted into bed, the Lord spoke eight little words into my mind--you are wound up tighter than a corkscrew. Huh? Me? I never would have thought. And yet, once the words were spoken I suddenly became aware of just how tense and wired up my body really felt. Not to mention the jumble of thoughts tumbling round and around in my head.

The last several months flashed before my eyes. The frustration of trying to cram more into each day than is humanly possible, the rushing from one thing to the next as a result, the inability to achieve balance in my life and letting work take over more and more of my time. Why? I thought I was laid back, I thought my trust was in the Lord and His provision, I thought, I thought, I thought. What a rude awakening to see that what I thought was not fact at all.

If I was really laid back, why was my body all tied up in knots, and if I was trusting in the Lord to provide for all my needs, why was I so fearful that if I didn't work harder and faster, the work would go to someone else? That sounds more like trying to be in control than trusting God and being willing to step outside my comfort zone.

So now I lay it down again, and re-commit my way to the Lord. That means letting Him decide what I need to do, and allowing Him to order my steps and orchestrate my time. He sees the whole picture, and knows what is best. Plus He loves me unconditionally (and you too), and never gives up on us--no matter how many times we fall.

How fitting that I write this as Labor Day draws to a close, harboring the end of one season and the beginning of the next. I feel as though I too am leaving an old way behind and embarking on a new adventure, and I can't wait to see how the next chapter unfolds.

7 comments:

Marie said...

It is such a struggle isn't it? I know I have so many things to do that need to get done each day, what with my full time job and then I love my blogging and I love to visit all my friend's blogs, and then my artwork, and now Seminary has started up again. Some days I feel stretched beyond my capacity, but somehow I get it all done and count it all joy. I think I need to get up earlier each morning. I want to fit some exercise in there and it's just not happening!

Renee said...

How beautiful sweet friend.

Love Renee xoxo

The Rose Room said...

Hoping you have unwound some what! Thanking you for all the lovely supportive comments you leave me - who is sometimes very wound up! Rachaelxo

annie said...

Every time we think we've got it all worked out, we slip into our old ways... Ah, being human!

Nice post.

Renee said...

xoxox

Scribbit said...

Fall is my very favorite time of year for just these reasons.

Grammy Staffy said...

What a lovely post. It is amazing how the Lord gives us insight into ourselves isn't it. I know exactly what you mean. I too get all wound up trying to do too much and "take care of things" when I often should leave it in the Lord's hands, relax and listen to his gentle promptings. Sometimes I even read my scriptures in a rush...just crowding them into my busy day instead of enjoying them and taking them into my heart.
We are all so human!.... but the wonderful part is that He still loves us and takes time to teach us....and then once in a while He wispers a message to us and we listen like you did that night. I think it was nice that you took the time to listen and understand His message for you.

Thank you for your well wishes on my blog. I appreciate the support of my blog friends.

Have a great week. Keep listening and I will try to do the same.
Hugs, Lura